I Hate This Relationship, but at the Same Time I'm Not Single

We are always lying to ourselves. We're trying to convince ourselves that whatever we are feeling about our situation is temporary, it's transient and its unnecessary. The worst lie the world has sold to us is that something is better than nothing. When you make choices in life that force you towards the nothing, you truly discover how courageous you are. You can lie to any one but yourself. Don't lie to yourself. I've done that so many times. In my life. And i stand here as a living example tell you that when you make choices  to go for the nothing,you truly discover how Courageous you are.