I'm So Overwhelmed and I Can't Imagine Never Doing It Again

I would look up to people who were already on that level and not judge them but be like it's too too extreme Too much I'm already working hard Yeah, you know because you won't be able to enjoy the stuff and do what it is until you realize That it's not. And then for me what I still have a new year's dinner party with my friends who are all Party in and they can't They're like oh wow how long will this last for like forever?Yeah, and I'm like I live I don't know like it's not really I'm not trying to accomplish anything with it This is when I feel yeah absolute best and I'm I am my best