Is Your Work Stress Related to Your Essays?

I was under the illusion that I wasn't thinking about publishing them, but usually when I'm writing it might sound disingenuous but it's genuinely true. The proceeds of like money, revenue earned from the essays are being donated to various causes. To the Equal Justice Initiative and the COVID Fund in New York. So that that part is good because normally when you're promoting a book, my case is kind of a lot of self-hatred. Like what are you doing? Who cares? Who's just a benefit? That's usually my thought process. It goes into a spiral of doom. And I suppose in this case, at least I could think I know why I'm doing