When youare a child, everyone's paying attention to me. But later on as f they'll nobody's payng attention to you,. Nobody's paying attention anything but their own internal projection. They never understand that the reality of the projecting outside is not real and often doesn't accord with objective reality or the things that are happening in their life. I'll give you a perfect example. i remember a story of, there was a girl who made fun of me in grade school, and she called me chicken legs. So for a huge chunk of my life, i thought, my legs are ugly. As a direct consequence of this, i didn't even wear pants at the beach until my