Julia, i really hope that stuff gets better for you. You seem like an amazing person who has a lot to offer the world. Your inability to share that actually is not very uch your fault. But cut yourself some slck, be patient with yourself. There's so much stuff here That's out of your control. And as best as you can, for these one or two things, try to do what you can. Cause we can't fix eastern european health gare system.