The Head Is Not Doing It, but It Doesn't Do It

I've been sober again for three years now and I thought a couple times about doing the steps. Again. And basically what moved me to do the steps wasn't the problem, It was the solution. The problem led to its, the system's own demise or a recognition of the failure of the system. Was brought about by the problem, but moving towards the solution. That's my Observing of it.