i feel like the ocean is a perfect metaphor for everything in life, besides just s impossible to not have some contemplation there. There's a lot of fear in my body, and it feels like changing my relationship to fear is my full time job. So i was really in that state and and looking at the ocean and being so even when i wasand in the church growing up, i felt like god was in the sunset,.god was in the treat my, you know, of seeing the beauty in nature was one of my ways of getting to god and accessing that love. And i felt very much like the god from his childhood. You're not broken because you're forgetting. This is