I remember clearly pleading with him that we loved him and that he didn't have to do this. And I think maybe clarity or grace in a moment of clarity that my father found he decided not to shoot us not to kill us. It was one of the hardest and most sad days for her. But it liberated her and it liberated myself and my brother. The experience taught me became the benchmark for me to do so many more things in my life. Because I don't think I was meant to be a seal. You know there were many more to come later, but for different reasons. But this was my first taste of it.