How Did You Feel as Steve Jackson After Operation Julie?

I tried to become my real self again by trying to buckle down to what i term as normal police work after operation julie. And that i found immensely difficult. I'd picked up strong drinking habit whilst i was under cover as steve jackson. Towards the end of my service, i actually was offsick. My local doctor, min cep dade, knows me with clinical depression. Around that time, there were no conversations about mental healthd in the way that there are to day. Who did you talk to about how you were feeling? There was nobody. But i would have benefited enormously from some form of psychological concelling at that particular time.