The 12 Disciples Carry a Cross

The disciples said, we're gonna follow you. We'll go even to death. But they're gone. Who in particular of the 12 disciples should have been there carrying that cross? Peter was the one who promised, I will never leave you. Even if I have to die, I will be by your side. Where's Peter? He's gone. You gotta remember, Peter isn't even Peter, right? Peter is not his birth name. It's Simon."