You Don't Know What's Best for You, Right?

i think that in our narcisism and our ego, we think we have control of things. Atheism is a way of lying yourself,. there is no god, there is no meaning. That's also a lie. It's finding the lie that works for you. We're all looking for our liei our own lie. What do we think about when we die over? I don't know if i can even fathom it. Is your consciousness an energy? If it's an energy, i believe it on some lives in some way - but  I'm not sure what they are. And this new concept of something bigger than me has taken all the work off my plate