Is Your Self Awareness Detrimental to Your Practice?

You are very self aware, and i'm curious if that self awareness is ever detrimental to your practice. You did say something, i think that was, you said a few things that were interesting there. But thing that caught my ear was that on some level, you're like, i'd just rather be making records. It may be a at times, although there most of the time, i'm painfully aware of and and depressed by my lack of a memory.