The Only Thing You Have Absolute Control

i turned down the chance to appear on cooking cowboys net three times. i was always hesitant of that because some one sitiand watches this show, and she is glamorous, it was exciting. But because ugis hav buried a child. Or worse yet, some kid drops out of school and says, i won't become like sound willy and become a drug and become rich tthns going to happen. It's never going to happening. Andtil the last time, when i told hem, you tell the bad with the good, and i'll do it. What made me lay in the floor of penamen in jail, being tortured to death, where i bl