The Difficulty of Pursuing a PhD

I can imagine pursuing a PhD here by yourself, you're working these long hours and I can understand having experienced a little bit of that. How did you deal with those big questions and, and that difficulty? Part from really looking into this sort of what I just said about, you know, near death experiences and all these kinds of things. Then I found myself in the sort of again, in a more sort of new age, spiritual section of the big bookstore. And yes, because I mean, that is really in our culture, what really jumps at you. That's really what is even there before you actually get through to,. you know, Christian bookshops.