How Does It Go From People Hurting at You to People Discerning You?

I was offered a million dollar signing bonus to someoneless kid. Why would you not take that? Well, I looked up books on the music business and I realized that it was a loan against record sales. It ended up being a great thing. I turned the money down because I failed. And my major pivot was realizing nobody owes me happiness. What am I willing to do for myself? When I started thinking about being skill-oriented, tackling bad habits, trying to create changes. Like I can make myself better. Yeah. First two people came to sing me in the coffee shop. Then it was four; then it was eight: People standing outside windows just with their faces pressed