I Don't Know if I Can Do That Everyday for the Rest of My Life

I don't know if i was ever too bored, even even the gardening. I think i was at a place in my life where i was trying my best to be contemplative and trying to to meditate a little bit. But now, i don't, don't know. I don't think i could do it. It's not really something that you could pick up for. Some one'll be in the community for ten or 15 years,. even longer than that, and a, they might come to the conclusion, you know, this is not something i can do for the rest of my life.