I realized that my body does so much for me. And also emotionally, my body has held so much. I think that that's 90 % of how i have changed my relations with my body is that i have a therapist who constantly brings me back to my body. You can search, i found one in texar canatex i found two in texarCanatexas,. which is where my parents live. So if you if i can find them there, usually if you google search sematic therapist, you can find one somewhere near by.