I was drinking, getting paid good money I spent most of my money on a bar tap. It's kind of like What am I doing here So then there was a training fire and I'm sitting there watching this guy and All I could think of when I was watching was Like man, why don't you just free fucking die because I know you're gonna die? That's where I was so they kind of apart knee died. Even now sometimes some kids you say when mr. Espinals really doesn't have a sense of humor because sometimes I don't you know even on the fire department.