How Does Depression Affect Your Life?

i've had depression for such a long time, i'm not really depressed now in this present year, this present moment. But my depression has evolved to a state ike, when i'm feeling it, i start casting out lines to people, and and then it starts getting worse. When they bite, i almost resent that they're even paying attention to me. It's like i asked for the help, and now that they're giving it back, i'm mad that they're responding. And it's the strange cycle that i put myself through of like asking for it because i know before it gets me, that that's what i need. Ye, and your old friend. He