I 'm not a nihilist when it comes to human nature, but i do think there is an inherent aspect of tragedy that involves human nature. We're always constantly crashing a narrative of our own selves that suits our purpose, and readjusting things in our past to suit that purpose. And so then i think that we kind of grow like crab, like we're hardening our shells with this sort of self deceptiond. I also wanted to show the other side, which is that sometimes the egoism and mania of science, particularly at the highest level, is a necessary condition for any new work. The people who create big deal scientific theories are lmost never normal, polite