I had fallen in love with this girl when I was 16 and we were really really good friends She says we were best friends and she had zero interest in me Romantic you're the front zone. Oh my god And then there was also like always gonna be like some grip who had a prescription to percocet that you could like Give away to him, you know. There was just a moment where I was like if I'm gonna make this work if this really has a shot at longevity I Got a change because she likes to do stuff like take a hike We spend the day at the beach and go to museums and I can't do that That was kind of it. It was like