Getting Stuck Behind a Wall

iam, literally, still, i totally afraid of that kind of thing, like getting stuck in the maybe, maybe the grantome reminded me of it. But also related to this, i mean, getting bored like im, i'm like, highlydistractable. I can't stop free associateand i cind of more attracted to non secretars than to secretors. It's a problem or it ought to be a problem, but i'm really dependent on it. And if i lost the ability to sort of make pointless kind of leaps from one issue to another, that that scares me almost same way as the thought of getting stuck.