"I just kind of freeze for a second. that this thing that was so, you know, we saw the Westboro as literally like heaven on earth right" "How can I walk away from my mother who is being so horribly mistreated, how can I leave her and just to think about that even to ponder it for a moment just felt like this enormous betrayal," he says. 'It just felt like there was no hope that there was no way out'