Exploration of Identity, or Reconfiguration of Identity

i am very cognizant of the mystery that life is. At this moment in my life, i have a massive pile up of questions and a very small collection of answers. I often don't understand where i am in this current moment until five years from now, when i can look back reflect on it. And i'm not going to discover where i'm at unti some time goes by. Ah, i've had moments in ten years ago and 15 years ago that based on recent understanding of things, those moments have been reconfigured in my memory. So instead of thinking about deconstruction, i might ah think about re examining my narrative, or rewriting my story from a new perspective