My First Orgasm

I had my first orgasm ever when i was dry humping first boy friend. Had so much like fear and shame around like all o that stuff, um. And i remember just like feeling this state of like ridiculous euphoria and like positivity andlike just ecstasy. But then the second part of that was, like, my boy friend probably didn't even know, because i was trying to hide it cause i was ashamed,. I went on this huge journey of like, self work and sexual healing, and then wound up becoming like a survace because i was supermessed up in that department. It's really ye an, no, mean  that's why i went on this