What Do I Do Now?

I must have been going through this about a year after my father died. So I, I started asking a lot of questions and I started reevaluating what I thought was important. And at that point, I'd spoken with enough artists friends and also I'd taken some students to teach one-on-one. They were expressing mental blockages about art that it turned out because of the experiences I'd been through. It's like you can never be quite sure, you know, you think you want something now, you're not sure you're going to want it later. That's a choice.