i encourage you to stop am doing what researches have referred to as hustling for worthiness, or begging for self worth and validation elsewhere. Putting your worth into the hands of anyone other than yourself is setting yourself up for a lot of unhappiness in life. The belief in your own inherent value has to come from within. And i don't have a whole lot of advice on how to make that happen because it's derivative, directly, of experience. You can't read something that i write, or listen to this podcast and suddenly be like, wow,  you know the shitand i really believe it, right? It's not going to happen that way. It takes experience