Pornography and the Arousal State

When I was younger my response was to sort of like pay back or make good on the social complaint about pornography by doing something internal. Now it turned out to be a pretty good strategy for me but there seem to be many different ways to adjust that balance in people's experience. It took me ten years honestly like watching porn and then being like okay I feel disgust or whatever but did it hurt me really is this a bad feeling? But now I can say no it's actually just a neutral inert thing that you can see in the context of society  and you can see it as a lens to see your society as a lensto see humanity as a Lens to see yourself and as a