Hegel's Life and Death Struggle

Hegel's whole point is self consciousness proves itself as a self consciousness through this disdain for natural life. So the idea is that you cannot be dependent, like to be a subject is to refuse any dependency, even dependency on life itself. It's a way of Hegel thinks destroying everything that's external to the self or making it worthless and making this self. And so this struggle for him really is the,. the way of affirming subjectivity, but then it goes awry, right? Yeah.