I remember this so vividly because there was a part a point where we did talk again for a bit I unblocked him we talked again he invited me out to a concert or whatever. Initially I agree to it got really really anxious again and then I like came home an hour or two before the concert just like started bawling my eyes out in bed with all your lights off. Even now you know you still kind of go back and you're like how the fuck did I let someone treatment? It's because from as well for me like yeah like this could happen to anyone and I in realizing that like I've always been very strong very independent. Very confident in myself.