How Can I Control What Happens in My Life?

In the last month, i've had a huge sense ofjust out of control. It's the first time ive ever felt that. I feel like my decisions, my impacts, iare not going to have much o an influence at all on what happens. The last weeks, i've been sleeping horribly, drinking, grumpy. And look, me, i feel horrible complaining about this, because so many people are in such a worse situation than i am. But this is crippling anxiety that i just don't know if what i do has an impact on the output any more.I can control a lot more than i think i can control, right? That's why i became an