Is There a Way to Get Around the White Belt Dilemma?

I had these this underlying problem that was always very hard to to really describe or put my finger on for about as long as I can remember. It wasn't until sometime in middle school that I actually you know mentally articulated the specific thought of I would have been better off not being born a boy. And at the time given the complete 100% lack of any kind of LGBT discussion in education why just chalk it up to well sucks to be me and carried on.