The Pain of Being Out of Touch With Body

I have this like bodily memory which is weird because it's not connected to images and that connected to PTSD is also very complex and weird. For me the connection to the world and existing has been so painful because when I was younger I was self-harming and I was abused and I was victim of violence and so on and so on  and I was dissociative. Because I didn't have alternative ways of connecting with the world then it was very tricky to get back to my body and to be present and to be okay with my body existing in the world.