Methods of Eastern Exercise

I ingested LSD or Mescalant or Peyote or Oliu. Whatever was offered to me I took, something in excess of probably 300 times. No matter how many times I went up, I always came down. It was as if I would go to the doorway and maybe for a brief moment I would be able to experience this other kind of consciousness. And I'd think, well now I've got it forever. I'll never have to go back to that place.