You've got to ask yourself, why the hell not? What is it about me like, why can't i take pride in this? You've got to get to the bottom of that, because what you're going to find is it's a ling that keeps you from doing it. There's a road block to you building confidence. Even if you do all the right things, it's the internal work that's the most important. And when medicine starts making you sick, screwed.