I believe going to be a virgin for life because i'm ugly. I know how egoistic and pitiful that sentence reads at first glance, but i think it's true. Even if i did magically wake up to morrow a new man with a new face, i'd be so romantically stunted from years of no success. Being so late to the game kes me feel like i'm branded a virgin, loser for life. Usually don't think about it, but lately it's been rough. I've been thinking about suicide here and there,. Sometimes i feel close to it.