How Do You Get Away From Writing?

i'm almost skitsophrantic with regard to a public opinion or outsidera judgment. I want people to feel the excitement that i feel in the face of something that i feel is well made. It's often wild, you know, wildly upsetting to realize how radically differently people can read the exact same thing. And what is your favourite word? Well, it's cheating, but i'm going to say that among them certainly as bewilderment. The work has hardened into a kind of nn. Who do you show your work to first, to get feedback? By the time i get feedback, it's almost too late.