I'm Having Feelings and I Need Your Help

A pine tree writes, hi, sierra and sam. I'm a thirdy year old woman in a long term, serious relationship with another third year old woman. We've been together for a couple of years now, and it's been absolutely incredible. She makes me feel wanted, safe, supported, confident, secure, giddy and just absolutely amazing. My question to you salmon sierra is, why the fuck an my still thinking about my shiddy acts? Please? Helm ugh, we broke up several years ago. It was one of those can't eat, can't sleep, can't breathe kind of break ups,. The worst i've ever had by far. Thanks