I Touch Another Man's Vagina for the First Time

As a queer fem, i kind of thought there would be more candles or incense and less blood and crying. I had spent years unlearning internalized homophobia, reading queer theory, listening to hoser. And this is what i get. This is how it happens, as a poor man's ginacologist. As soon as jy answers the phone, she is cackling. When ja finally calms down, em lays down the bed and i put my hands on her knees and ask, are you ready? And j falls apart again. M starts making this half laugh half sobbing noise. She spreads her legs with much effort, and i am kneeling there, face