"I struggle with gratitude. I'm not, I'm not good at it," he says. "There's a lot of lasts that we do before we die." The last time you might go to Europe and backpack might be in your 20s. And if you can appreciate them for that, they just taste a little bit sweeter. If you're 85 years old and I'm actually here, like I zoomed into this moment. Dude, this fucking awesome.