What Is Happening in My Life?

Most of my caring energy had got caught up in the pretending. My heart is being held hostage by shoulds and shouldnts that came from a normal, i never agreed to it when i was a little boy learning how to be me. I didn't choose those things that she got me to pretend we're good and bad. There's a lot of therhat there still, i don't know it still here. And i wasn't allowed to be angry because i wasn't good enough to speak up and actually say, fack this on. Fackendo n ckan. En it.