I Was Really Actually Looking for It Today

I had a lot of undiagnosed social anxiety as a kid and so it was just very shocking to hear like oh you know maybe this is confirmation for me that everybody is not my friend or doesn't really like me. I saw him as someone who was trying very hard and I think that scared me because I realized that I also tried very hard. If he was coming on the other side of an interaction with something bad happening it struck a very real nerve with me of being afraid of interaction going poorly.