The second time around was a huge wake up call because I found out that I had lost the baby, but my body was still pregnant. And so when I look at those losses, they were massive teachers in my life. Sometimes the season of waiting is just as important as what it is that we're waiting for. It's really easy to want to like total your thumbs and just sit there,. But by the time she was pregnant for the third time,  I had built a life where I was able to move"