"If I don't go in they'll have won how many times if we heard that American soldiers rely on firepower and technology because they lack courage?" "I surrendered my honor and my manhood now I have to take both back or live with the fact that they are right about me that is unacceptable" 'They deserve more from me. do I have the ballsDo I have the nuts to do what my fucking heart wants me to do' The last thing I wanted to do this was we're looking for 10 to 12 bad guys which everyone's looking for, he says. “You were having a full blown conversation and there was no one you were talking to”