i would have had to wait till the consequence. If iad perceived it to beof extremely negative consequence, then i would have beat myself about it. And if i got on fine, i'd i wouldn't, i suppose i wouldn't have cared er. It's like, i dropped out a uni to do this, right? But that made sense. I was doing well in this and, like, so the consequences are good. So all of a sudden it's like, great, you know, like, tat. You need external things, fundamentally. We need external things when we don't believe in ourselves, right? Because the tricky thing is, why do you