The Two Modes of Writing

The writing that I had to do as a kid or as a young adult was all um writing that I resisted resisted doing it was un not enjoyable it had to be polished. It takes a long long time to unlearn that this is writing for people who don't care about your thoughts they only care about your capacity to regurgitate what they told you like in German classes. In the academic world there is you have to write in a certain style right and it has to be dry and boring whatever and it's even harder if I was double it double in dr. and eight yeahYeah but it's important very important to to break out of these internal loops oh how am I gonna write