I've Had a Lot of Traumatized Responses to Black Folks as a Result of Them

I've had a lot of similar experiences that you described as far as like how I grew up. I also have a lot of traumatized responses to black folks as a result of them. What I'm doing right now is intentionally, I have to be super purposeful about prioritizing blackness by straining myself with black imagery. Being in black spaces that honestly have felt really threatening to me because of things that happened to me. This memory of rejection, I think, is in my body.