I felt very a responsible for a lot of a pain that my family went through. And in turn, you know, i had my own pain, but then i also had the pain that i felt likei was inflicting upon others because of my issues. My self esteem suffered so much because of that. It took a very, very long time for me to learn to begin to like myself. I can't really honestly say that i loved myself yet, but i do like myself a little bit more than i used to. The one truth at the end of the day is that you're broken in some way.