Nothingness Is Nothingness

i came to the point that nothingness sucks. Like ness is nothing. And delusion exists for a reason. We want to embrace the time that we're here and use our illusion, have fun with it. Nothingness is no sadness, no happiness, no pain, no death, no joy either. Though it's like the nirvana concept of heaven is nothingness. There is no your pain. It's not, i'm happy on a cloud somewhere forever. It's i'm nothing. But i might as well use my illusion while i'm here. So again, we are sometimes like crazy simpotico. I like being mee.