How I Feeled About Become a Mother

I'm curious how you felt about becoming a mother because it sounds like you were quite keen to escape and carve your own way. I mean, becoming a mother itself is such a shock to the system and to be feeling quite alone with it must have been incredibly tough. How did you feel about having babies becoming a mom? When Mariella was born, it was beautiful, amazing and wonderful. But then as time went by and she started crying and I needed to be there and take care of all her needs. It was overwhelming and I felt that this baby is getting in my way and I couldn't handle it. She used to get really mad because she would say, but where can I